lately, loads of things happened 2 me..
i've never been so depressed, stressed out and tensed in my life.
idk what happened 2 me..
everything i do seems 2 turn out badly..
at d start of this sem, i realised i did really badly for last sem..
for the first time in my life, i felt depressed.
i was worried what my parents would say, what my friends would say, and how i was going to cope with the many more challenges that are about to come.
i cried a lot as well..
hell, i even cried when i was in class..
i'm not d type of person who cries easily, only when i'm really angry, or really touched..
and my confidence level was zero..
and i didnt really feel that i have someone to talk to..
not because i really dont, i do actually, but i just cant bring myself to talk to them about my problems.
i need something/someone who can just listen to me without making any sound in return, regardless whether those sounds were in the form of words of encouragement, scolding, sarcastic remarks or sympathy.
and not even my kittens can do that for me, then.
(not that they made any remarks, just that they cant sit still with me and ease all my worries.they keep running around the house!)
i've kept it all inside, and now, i feel that my problems are not decreasing.
They're increasing!
new problems keep appearing.
too much that i fear, soon i'll collapse.
haisyh...(lets just hope i dont.)
